There was a wee chubby girl!!! Always!! For as long as i can remember, at any point in my life I could have stood to lose 20 - 30 pounds. Now don't get me wrong... I worked what I had - at least since the age that i knew what "working it:" was all about.... confidence drummed up from somewhere that I can't even imagine! Now I'm not going to bore you with all the details of my childhood, but it's not easy growing up being the fat girl in school!! And with my haircut I also quite often was mistaken as a boy!! Very tough on a young girl! But you what? Everyone has there trauma... and I don't believe it is an excuse for anything... i could blame my 30 some years of being over weight on many... many... (MANY ahem) things but for whatever reason I never did, and I certainly won't start now. I did this. I got me this way - this far gone - its all a series of choices.
I can remember the summer between Grade 7 and Grade 8 - now for us small town folk this was the summer before high school so was one of the most exciting of my life already but it was also my first experience with weight loss. My dad told me he would give me $5.00 for every pound i lost... "Right on" I thought! And with the help of my Grandma we counted calories and went for walks and i ate like a "lady" (one of the many 'lady' skills my Grandma had to teach me - you'd be amazed what a little girl doesn't know growing up in a house of men - even the dog was male for Christ sake!) I'll digress... I lost 30 pounds!! Now i can't remember what weight I started at and where I finished but it made a significant difference in my appearance. Now that same summer somehow I scored a visit with my mom too!! And she took me to a lady who managed to change my wicked boy looking hair into the cutest little bob you ever did see! - then she took me to Merle Norman and had them teach me how to wear make-up. WOW!! I started grade 8 .... HIGH SCHOOL with a whole new look and all of my friends were do amazed!! Thank Goodness for that summer!!! - the moral of this story... I STILL haven't seen a dime of that money from my father!!!! I was ridiculously disappointed!... maybe a note on parenting in there somewhere - follow through with what you say to your kids... it means a LOT to them...
So anyways, the point of this entry was to let you know that this has quite literally been a life long 'thing' for me... As i said at any point in my life i could have stood to lose some weight, and while I didn't obsess about it, it was always in the back of my mind.... Just having lost 30 pounds and being a brand new me - I was still the last to get picked in Gym Class, the slowest runner, and the last to cross any finish line. ***aaawwww!! woe is me hey?? ha ha!!*** I'm certainly not looking for any pity at this stage but these things stick with a girl and I'm certain someone out there is relating to some extent!!
To Blog or not to Blog
That was my big question. Its healthy once you start tying to truly figure yourself out to write shit down. But who the heck writes anymore??!!! - I mean actually physically writing with pen to paper - isn't it faster to type? So maybe blogging is the answer - its the diary we put out the whole freaking world.. AWESOME... isn't it fun to read other peoples goodies??
I do have an ulterior motive however. I thought, maybe.. just maybe if I put my story out there it might inspire someone.. even one person! That would be SO cool! So I'm going to yammer on about this and that but in amongst it all you will find the story of how I FINALLY realized my true physical self. Not how I did it last year, or how I did it before and it all fell to pieces, how I'm DOING it now. I'm going to put all the nasty details up on here and just let it all hang out! But by the end, I will prove beyond any shadow of a doubt that it can be done!! And its easier than everyone thinks... who said a little diligence, effort and work had to be hard??? Really... who said that??? its what we all think.... where the fuck did it come from? GAWD I hate that.
So it will be a story about losing some weight and gaining some fitness, and making a huge step forward in my adult life. I'll also want to talk a lot about things I have read and things I have learned so please forgive me if I accidentally plagiarize a line or two, or a phrase or two. I have learned so much through my very dear friend, who loves to read and learn - (I'm not much of a reader at all) - so I will be regurgitating some of that information as well, but I will honestly have no idea where exactly it came from!! ha ha!! SO, bare with me through the grammar and the cursing and I will try to be as much help as possible! Thank you for checking me out - any and all comments are more than welcome!
I do have an ulterior motive however. I thought, maybe.. just maybe if I put my story out there it might inspire someone.. even one person! That would be SO cool! So I'm going to yammer on about this and that but in amongst it all you will find the story of how I FINALLY realized my true physical self. Not how I did it last year, or how I did it before and it all fell to pieces, how I'm DOING it now. I'm going to put all the nasty details up on here and just let it all hang out! But by the end, I will prove beyond any shadow of a doubt that it can be done!! And its easier than everyone thinks... who said a little diligence, effort and work had to be hard??? Really... who said that??? its what we all think.... where the fuck did it come from? GAWD I hate that.
So it will be a story about losing some weight and gaining some fitness, and making a huge step forward in my adult life. I'll also want to talk a lot about things I have read and things I have learned so please forgive me if I accidentally plagiarize a line or two, or a phrase or two. I have learned so much through my very dear friend, who loves to read and learn - (I'm not much of a reader at all) - so I will be regurgitating some of that information as well, but I will honestly have no idea where exactly it came from!! ha ha!! SO, bare with me through the grammar and the cursing and I will try to be as much help as possible! Thank you for checking me out - any and all comments are more than welcome!
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