Win or Lose

It dawned on me for a moment that I should think - only for an instant - about the minuscule chance that I may not win this challenge. Reason being, my past has proven that disappointment can take me down. The theory about leveraging the universe that I have touched on before, does not leave room for doubt - you are to believe 100% in and out that you have already achieved your goal and your ideal result. I DO feel that! I find it easier to believe that wholly and put my faith into it, and me, if I have a cushy plan B. Nothing wrong with a plan B I always say!! - actually I don't... that's a lie... I usually have 100% faith in Plan A and it always works out BUT in this case I just want to be absolutely clear that I am not doubting myself!! I just want to make sure that 'if' (the tiniest 'if' possible) the tide doesn't turn my way this time I will NOT be discouraged!! It's more of a change of focus from Goal #1 - on to Goal #2. I am SO PROUD of what I have accomplished. I don't want my focus on the prize to take away from that. My success has been absolutely unbelievable. I have found strength I never knew I had, and I can see my old self creeping back in. Not that I had REALLY 'changed' per say, but I had got to a point where I wasn't quite myself anymore. Now I'm full of beans again and I'm loving it!!!! I challenged Dion to our first wrestling match in - oh god - I don't even know how long... I lost miserably of course!!! But at least I was up and about and full of business! That's more 'me'.... opposed to the me that continued to increase the size of the butt hole on my couch.

IN ANY CASE - I will know beyond a shadow of a doubt that if I am not the one that wins this challenge - the person that beat me worked their FREAKIN butt off and absolutely deserves the win!

Today marked the end of the 8 week challenge. I am very pleased to say that out of that 8 weeks I only ever missed 1 walk. I got in every work out. GOOD JOB T!!! Because of this I was able to knock off 21 pounds!! - just awesome. It averages out to about 2.6 pounds a week which is perfect for me right now I think.. 1 - 2 pounds/week they say is the very best way to lose weight to ensure that it does not come back. So I'm a little over, but I think on a great track!! - I have also deducted 3 minutes and 3 seconds off of my fitness test time. Fitness test = 40 Squats, 30 Crunches, 20 Push-Ups, 10 burpies AND after a 30 second break I hold the plank position for as long as I can, my starting time for that was 21 seconds and I increased that to 52!! An extra 31 seconds!! - I was aiming for a minute (cause I know I can do better than a minute but after the fitness test everything is harder!! ha ha ha!) and I'm telling you it felt like 26 minutes! VAST improvement none the less. The best part... the inches.... can I get a drum roll!!???? **you'll have to improvise this yourself because I have no idea how to type that....

TWENTY EIGHT!!!!!!! 28 motha fuckin inches!!!! I earned every damned one those!

Isn't that something??? I don't even know what to say about that. WAY TO GO. JUST a-freakin-mazing. Pride doesn't cover it right now. And nnooowwwwwww we shall see if it holds up!! I will know if I am the winner next Friday! - A week to wait!! A week to focus on my next goal... Under 200 for Christmas! I can just feel it now!! ooooOOoooooo baby!! YES PLEASE!! Its been SO LONG since I've seen the #1 in the first position on that scale... I am seriously gonna FREAK OUT - and I wasn't joking about running around naked... I'm SO doin it... for a whole week... I may throw something on for work - but otherwise... naked. Yuppers! Honestly - the way I feel right now with this first milestone achieved in such a fabulous fashion - nothing can kill this buzz.