THE CALL

I made the call yesterday to not do anything at all! Elaine sent me an e-mail saying that a walk could indeed help move the bug through me, and for sure listen to my body but whatever I do - Don't get a chill. Considering I had already had the chills for quote sometime and every fibre in my being was telling me to go to bed, I left work a bit early, had some nice hot soup and put myself to bed. I slept through until 7:00pm and got up for an hour and fed myself some more, then turned around and went right back to sleep again!! I think it was the right call for sure! We do need to listen to our bodies and put them first, and if you're certain you are not just creating an excuse in your mind then do what your body tells you too. When the guilt about it creeps up you tell it to piss right off and that everything will be just fine! I slept all through the night and am feeling a little better today, but still on the mend for sure. Today is a workout day though, so now I'm panicking - of course - this is all I know what to do from past experience. Today I am going to make sure I do SOMETHING... I'm going to aim to do my workout to its fullest extent, but if I get any negative responses from my body I'll just cut it down a bit and finish up with a bit of cardio or go straight to the walking portion and knock that out. I can tell already that I feel good enough to do something, and as long as I accomplish something I am still on the right track. Forward movement.

Now all this (hand in hand with my post from yesterday) has brought about the huge desire to 'cheat' and to stray from the clean eating that I have been enjoying so much!! Something about being sick makes a person want every comfort food out there!! ALL of it is something that is processed, or sweet, or salty fat and its oh so Mmm Mmm good! Yesterday I did stray.. nothing too major but I did have Liptons chicken noodle soup which is full of white pasta, but is stuck in my head as a cure-all, so I ate it up and enjoyed every bite! - I did opt not to have the premium plus crackers in there though, which is that step in the right direction. I also had a cookie... while i waited for my soup cause I was hungry and I was "craving" a sweet. CRAVING.. there's a good word... Elaine and I have talked about this... after my post about "they"... where do cravings even come from?? Cookie company's? - I'm sure every woman who has ever been pregnant is going to shoot me for this one but really... are you sending your husband out for a pint of Hagen Daas at 3:00am because you really NEED to eat ice cream... or are you doing it because this is what we have always heard happens when you're pregnant?? I guess I'd challenge everyone to find the truth in those feelings as well. - you're body WILL ask for things... if you're low on Potassium you'll want a banana, if you're shy on protein perhaps you'll stop en route home for a steak to BBQ for supper. These "cravings" SERVE your body. If you're "craving" chocolates, sweets or salty fat chances are you are just hungry in general OR even better thirsty. Next time your "craving" a sweet - try chugging half a glass of water. Or add a splash of juice to it then you will get a wee shot of sugar while you're at it. But I bet you 9 times out of 10 it'll do the trick.

How many of you are calling me a hypocrite now?? Ha ha ha!! Why didn't I take my own advice you say??? - Because i didn't want to!!! - I made that decision in the moment and I went with it, and did not feel bad about it! When you do 'cheat' or stray, try to keep it to a minimum but whatever happens do not feel bad about it! Once you start up those negative feelings you will only attract more negative. My thoughts went like this: "My body is a machine, I am constantly burning fat, I absorb only good nutrients the rest just passes through me".... if you entertain thoughts like "ugh this is going to stick right to my thighs" - it will. "dammit now I've cheated once,, I'm going to be a failure I may as well give up" - you will eventually. Be certain to curve those thoughts immediately!! And try to cheat early in the day..!! The more time you have to burn it off the better... Oooo and on Monday, I also had a frozen yogurt cone... it tasted like a wee bit of heaven!! ha ha ha!! - that's the other bonus to cutting yourself down on these things... when you do have a small cone, a bit, a half of anything... you APPRECIATE the flavor so much more and you savour it...