Discouragement

I had a few ideas for posts that I wanted to accomplish this week, but I am having a little side bar to address this freakin issue. Discouragement. Damn it anyways. I am right there in it right now, so I thought I had better get it out so I can move on already!!

It amazes me how we can take months and months, maybe even year after year changing our thoughts to more positive ones. Ensuring our inner most thoughts are those of support and encouragement and love, YET in a very instant the negative ones come back SO FAST. I suffered the tiniest of tiny set backs.... well not even a set back really... just something I took as a set back and proceeded to beat myself up about! Now i haven't let it stop me - trust me all of those excuses and rationalizations came flooding back... "I should just quit now, I can't do it" - "look at me... god what a pig... whats wrong with me?" Harsh right??? Its the worst. And now today I feel like a fatty again, I was poking at myself in the mirror and thinking that nothing was ever gonna change no matter how hard i worked anyways. Like seriously??? What. The. Fuck???? Time to give my head a shake. *and i just want to note here that all of this was coupled on top of a personal matter that arose yesterday afternoon... something that made me so upset, and angry and frustrated and... aw gawd whatever else... but we have to be sure not to use these things as an excuse to shut down. Instead I went for a good walk and marched my way up a hill that was killing me - but I used that physical pain to release some of that icky energy - then I had a drink! ha ha ha!*

There is NEVER an excuse to talk to yourself like that. - and I'll warn here that I may repeat certain things from post to post but if you don't need to hear it, then I do!! ha ha ha! Can you imagine yourself saying the negative things that you say to yourself to a friend of yours????? Theres no freakin way I would ever talk to someone like that, ANYBODY..... SO the battle must go on!! Turn those thoughts around and do it quickly!! I'm at least really good at catching myself when it happens now... really start paying attention to what you're thinking cause they sneak in there a lot of the time without you even knowing. So this morning when i was exercising I made sure to say things like "You CAN do it Ter, lets go!" - "I'm a fat burning machine - thats what my body does... its burns fat and heals itself".. because let me tell you if you are repeating negative thoughts to yourself its not gonna matter how well you eat or how much you exercise, I don't think ANYTHING will change.

SO - i guess maybe at times a little bit of discouragement will be inevitable. But lets not get down about it! Turn those thoughts into positive ones and no matter what your inner thoughts try to talk you out of - keep on trucking right through! Tomorrow is a whole brand new day and those feelings CAN NOT last forever!! At the end of the day it's a choice, choose the right ones that serve you and your purpose.